I am so done…

I have been in the worst slump for the past 2 months and feel so defeated. I read Heavenbreaker by Sara Wolf and loved it. Since then I have only been able to read smutty 200 pages or less of Kindle Unlimited books. I have DNF’d about 5 books in the last month and a half and am at a loss for what to do now. With all the books on my shelves just staring at me, I must keep trying and get one book finished before the end of this month. Now, I need a game plan to get out of this slump and back into my normal 5 books a month groove. So here are my ideas.

1. I reread Heavenbreaker since I loved it so much and it’ll count as a book read

2. I reread my favorite series of all time and hope it sparks my want for reading and catapults me into my next book, Red Rising by Pierce Brown.

3. I wait for my preorder of Daydream by Hannah Grace to come in and hope my excitement for that will make me read it in one sitting.

4. I trudge my way through the book I most recently started A Darker Shade Of Magic by V.E. Schwab

   
   

Now I think there are some problems with some of these ideas so I don’t know where to go from here.

If I reread the book that put me in the slump, would that help anything? Or am I going to finish reading it, remember the second book is forever away, and not be able to read anything, again? After finishing the book I put it in my Goodreads like one does and was surprised that it didn’t have as many good reviews as I thought. Some people felt misled because it was marketed as a fantasy romance, which it most definitely is not. It has a building romance that will probably develop more in the next book but is not a main plot in this one. I would also say that it is more Sci-fi than fantasy. So I think when I went and saw all these bad reviews for a book I enjoyed, it made me question myself. What if the books I read all suck and I have bad taste? That may be part of the reason it put me into a slump.

If I reread Red Rising I will want to read the whole series again and that already put me into a slump the first time so I don’t know if I should do it again. Last time I didn’t have Iron Gold, Dark Age, and Light Bringer though so maybe it’ll push me to read those next. Seeing as I DNF’d Dark Age, maybe rereading all of Red Rising will excite me more. The first series was a buddy read and when we found out there were more books for the second series we started those but it was such a different vibe that it took me a while to get into Iron Gold then another month after finishing that to get into Dark Age. My Buddy has already finished Dark Age and Light Bringer without me which is very out of the norm, usually I’m waiting on him.

Waiting for Daydream sounds good but I have already gotten three other highly anticipated preorders that I haven’t been able to read either. I was so excited for Leather & Lark by Brynne Weaver, Love Unwritten by Lauren Asher, and The Dixon Rule by Elle Kennedy but again I picked them up, and right down they went.

I am enjoying A Darker Shade Of Magic but can feel it slipping away. I don’t know if it is because I have only been reading during my 30-minute breaks at work and not when I get home but I feel disconnected from it and I don’t have any desire to read it once I get home. My ADHD has been bad lately and I have been frozen a lot at home with all these things I want to do and should do I end up not doing any of them and then feel like crap for it. Or I will do all the stuff I have to do, like laundry and dishes and vacuuming once I’m done I’m exhausted and just doom scroll on Tictok.

All in all, I am mad at myself and really sad that I cannot do what I most enjoy, and I feel like I am a husk of myself. I know that’s a lot and just a little dramatic but reading is a big part of me and sometimes I feel like one of the only interesting parts of me. Almost every day at work, at least one of my coworkers asks “What have you been reading lately?” “Have you finished any books?” “How many books are you at now for the year?” And I have nothing. Because I haven’t been reading anything lately, I haven’t finished any books, and I’m still at the same number of books as I was two months ago.

So in conclusion I don’t know how I will get out of this book slump. I don’t think any of my ideas will work so if you have any book recs I will happily take them. For now, I think I am going to go with option 5.

5. Keep picking up random books till I finish one.

How to get out of my slump

• Reread Heavenbreaker
• Reread Red Rising
• Wait for Day Dream
• Finish A Darker Shade Of Magic